i was crippled and bed-ridden and my grandmother died and my children and i had to be cared for by a hired friend and my husband had to re-take his comps and i had to start occupational therapy and go to the pain specialist and the hand surgeon and my sister had her wisdom teeth cut out of her head and my uncles came for the funeral and everybody drank beer and played risk while i rested my swollen hand atop piles of pillows in irritating splints of one kind or another, my scab peeling and itching, my skin crawling and aching, my brain a fog, my stomach churning. then jon passed his comps and we returned home and i began therapeutic exercises and my mother-in-law visited, and i bought and tried to wrap christmas presents with my teeth, my elbow, my feet, and my weakly left hand. then we returned to my mother's house for christmas and my youngest son got sick and for a moment we suspected whooping cough, but then it got better and his tooth popped out. that is where i have been. i am using two hands to type: one knowledgeable and weakly though strong enough for typing and the other clumsy dead weight, numb and not at all nimble; a giant hand trying to thread a needle. i am tired and intermittently pained, sniffling and fumbling about with a head cold. i get the urge to perform tasks i cannot do or which are decidedly difficult with one hand. i am sickly skinny. i am bored yet exhausted by the slightest exertion of energy. blogging has me spent.


annakiss vs. casserole dish: a photo tour

saturday dinner
note green bean casserole dish, smiling family, feasting on poultry carcass (not i - i had eggplant parmesean and turkey seitan (praise seitan!))

in a flurry of dish washing, right wrist becomes slashed, lands me in an ambulance wrapped in gauze with an iv drip in my left arm, preventing almost all forelimb movement. morphine ensues en route (scary needles in moving vehicle!)

sterile field prepared for cleansing, further inspection and loose, superficial suturing to await surgery two days later

frankensteinian stitches, still detached tendons tucked carefully within

sunday nap, on the phone with ana, pondering the philosophical implications of near death

monday migraine appears sensuous on the table at the hand surgeon's

ana calls it "creepy sexy"


monday night before surgery, left-handed myspacing, talking to everyone on the phone

jon on way to surgery center

annakiss and clyo the hand-bandage ready for action

awaiting sedation

examining iv: discomfort

i wanna be sedated

post surgery disorientation

my stoned, confused method of telling jon "no more pics"

recovering at home in the electronic chair for geriatrics

sebastian and i discussing important matters

sebastian sucking down the narcotics via boobyjuice