sick of it all. terrified of what is coming. why not promote peace? how will peace ever be achieved if the world is so blood-thirsty? if we are so blood-thirsty? so much bullshit. so much patriotism swelling up and looking ugly and full more of hatred than of concern or feelings of loss; grief. everything is ugly. and i find myself defending myself relentlessly - i am not unamerican, i am not uncaring. i do indeed give a shit. i just don't trust the government. which i shouldn't because they want to bomb everyone. i am so inarticulate right now, it is ridiculous.